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  1. Jazz:

    A great post.

    Today, I picked up the Andre Agassi autobiography and I see some parallels between the story you tell here and the story that Agassi describes in his final US Open. Your experiences are likely shared by virtually all pro-athletes. It’s a tough way to make a living.

    I remember traveling to races with you and hearing the age groupers whisper when they saw you. I remember hearing some of the family men on the startline, with great lives no doubt, wish to have your abilities. I remember wishing the same. But, I also remember a great conversation with you at the Bullring in Guelph. You explained what it meant to be a professional athlete. The sacrifices, the difficult lifestyle, the travel, the restrictions on your day to day living, the hours of punishment, the attention to every detail from the largest to the smallest. I asked myself: Do I really want that? That conversation set a lot of things straight for me. It was that moment that I began to see what i truly wanted.

    Now, I find myself under a roof with a hot, brilliant, awesome woman, a wicked awesome son and a dog that thinks he’s a human. Tomorrow, I’ll be up at 5am, or 6 or 4:43, whenever my son decides. I’ll play with him because I love it. The family will walk down to the lake, because we love it. I’ll head to a local trail race and as hard as I can for the day and be happy with the effort, because it’s a blast and because the family will be waiting for me at the finish line. We’ll go home before the results and prizes are given out. The next morning, I’ll run before work with my boy in a stroller, enjoying the fresh air. It’s a great way to start the day. I am living the life that I want and that I love.

    Our conversation years ago, helped me to realize that you have to love what you do. It sounds like your break helped return the love of what you do. That’s awesome. I hope it stays. In the end, I think that’s the only thing that matters.

    You’re a wise and lucky man. Enjoy it all!

    Shit, ass, bitch, dwarf. (Do you remember saying that on the way back from Peterborough?)

  2. Hey Jazz, it is a very brave thing to write about your feelings (maybe a little too graphic at times….). You are a great athlete and from what I have seen a good friend to others. I have never seen you without a smile on your face and a welcoming disposition. You are a great dad and I am sure a caring spouse.
    I have no doubt you will rise to the challenge whatever life throws at you. Sometimes we are in control of our destiny and sometimes we just have to wait for a while to see where we are going. Looks like you have turned a corner and maybe there is a signpost you can follow. Enjoy the build back and stay healthy.
    I still owe you a beer as I managed to leave T2 before you finished IMC 2009, maybe sometime you will collect it.

  3. Thanks for sharing this part of your journey with us.
    Sounds like you have your priorities well sorted out.
    Hope your Victoria weather is as glorious as our weather in Kingston has been lately.
    BTW…I love cheering at XC races…XC racers remind me of my hound dog…focused on the trail and oblivious of all else.

  4. Great article! I have just gone through a similar (but much shorter) experience. I took the better part of two months off and did little or nothing. I had a couple life moments with my duaghter have spine surgery and my Dad passing away. That seemed to trigger a “shut down” of sorts and I found myself really just burned out totally.

    Today was my first day back doing anything and I managed a nice 40km on/off road bike ride. No land speed records…just a fun, enjoyable ride. As you said…the sweat felt good!

  5. Mate I am always around if you want someone to hit a session with. Most the local guys are done for the year so it pretty just me and Magali still pushing on late into the season. Wed hill repeats are calling your name!!! Also, 70.3 Port Mac next March!!! Ill be back in Aus for a few months so you should conside it, ill be racing so you will ahve someone tobeat up on. Course will suite you, tough bike and good for a runner.

  6. Thanks for sharing this part of your journey with us. Sounds like you have your priorities well sorted out. Hope your Victoria weather is as glorious as our weather in Kingston has been lately. BTW…I love cheering at XC races…XC racers remind me of my hound dog…focused on the trail and oblivious of all else.

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